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[24 Jul 2008|03:13pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Today is mine and Tyson's 4th anniversary!!!

It's so hard to believe we've been married 4 years, and yet it seems like forever.

He's in Colorado Springs for work tonight and I don't even get to see him on our anniversary(boo) but he did surprise me last night with a dinner reservation at Ruth's Chris which was absolutely delicious, so I can't complain. He truly knows the way to my heart :)

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another deep thought [16 Feb 2007|07:21am]
[ mood | worried ]

exam this morning, so i thought i'd waste time before leaving (instead of studying) by posting another deep thought from dr.fuller.

this was during our lecture on depression.

When you find yourself struggling with loneliness, it is important to realize that you are not alone. And yet... you ARE alone....
so very.....ALONE."

hahahaha........... let's hope i can pass this thing!

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Deep Thoughts by Dr. Fuller [08 Feb 2007|09:54am]
"When you wish upon a falling star, your dreams can come true.

Unless it's really a meteorite hurling to the earth which will destroy all life.
Then you're pretty much hosed no matter what you wish for...
Unless it's death by meteor."
---Dr Stephen Fuller, Pharm D, BCPS, CPP
Campbell University School of Pharmacy

It's the little things that make my last semester of pharmacy school bearable. =)
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I Like This Song! [02 Sep 2005|10:16pm]
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you
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[03 Aug 2005|09:32am]
We're getting a security system installed right now, which makes me feel muuuch better about being alone here at night. The weird thing is, this guy who is installing it is from Virginia Tech and is a huge football fan. Him and Tyson have analyzed this year's football team from every possible angle. It's a small world, isn't it?

Last Friday I had a doctors appointment back home in Abingdon. Tyson had to work night shift all weekend so I went home on Thursday and stayed the weekend. It was so weird being home without Tyson, I felt like a lost puppy. It was very sad and I decided I'm not going anywhere without him again.

While I was home I went through all the stuff I had crammed in my old closet. I found tons of interesting stuff. I even found the newspaper clippings from our wedding announcement and the invitations and all that stuff that my mom had in a box up there, so I think I might make a scrapbook.

I need to mow the yard. Yes that's right...I mow our yard. I figure it's the least I can do because right now I'm not working and Tyson is working his butt off. Well it's not that hard really, but boy does it suck. I get so hot and I sweat so much that my clothes are completely soaked, and I smell like gas and grass and sweat for about a day after mowing. I try to put it off as long as possible but today might have to be the day because our grass is getting kinda out of hand.
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Finals Hell [25 Apr 2005|03:02pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Well finals week started last thursday. So far I have 3 down and 4 to go. And so far, things have not been pretty. I definately failed my biopharmaceutics final this morning. I'm just hoping my grades before the final can pull me through with a B *fingers crossed*. Actually, all 3 finals so far have sucked so it's not looking good. Even worse, Tyson hasn't been feeling well lately, and he came home from the hospital early today and is really sick. They told him he has the flu, so he's in bed. Please pray that he gets well soon, doesn't make me too deathly ill here during finals week, and also that I don't get a migraine because that's always in the back of my head and would definately take me out of commission for awhile. Just keep your fingers crossed for us...I can't wait until friday


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pictures [18 Feb 2005|12:54pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

here are some pictures they sent us from the health fair and the blood glucose booth...haha, these are hilarious. i wish i would've known this guy was taking my picture.

gettin' serious

stickin' her again for the 3rd time haha..i suck

a few of my classmates

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[06 Dec 2004|12:42pm]
Hey guys...

It's monday and I'm just now recovering from the hell that was last week. It was finals week and we had a final every day at 8 am. I've never had 8 finals before because I've never taken 8 classes, and on top of that I've never had more than 2 or 3 in a row because most civilized universitites have nice reading days or finals that last 2 weeks but not good ol campbell. we had 8 finals in 11 days, 4 of which were the thanksgiving holiday. so we drove home late wednesday and stayed for thanksgiving and came back on friday...it was a short and stressful thanksgiving because all I could think about was all the studying I had to do. I've never been so stressed in my life, it was horrible. But I got through it...my first semester is over and only 7 more to go as Tyson reminds me all the time...grrrr. I'm so jealous of him, he's almost finished. Speaking of Ty, he signed with Walgreens. Today was his first day, he's working in Bristol. I'll be working across the street at the rival CVS and I think I'm safe to say all the pharmacists and techs are going to be so mad at him. But Walgreen's just can't be beat. They had the best benefits, and they match retirement 3 to 1 which is unreal. So we'll be able to retire and travel the world in about 15 years if we plan right. I just can't believe we're going to actually have money soon. I want to send all our families on a huge trip or something, but we aren't sure what we're gonna do for them all just yet. But they have all sacrificed so much for us to be able to go to school where we wanted and stuff, so we're gonna pay them all back handsomely. My mom is already planning to quit work when we have kids and be our live-in nanny, which will be fine with me...haha. I'm just so excited about everything that's in store for us. I think tyson is going to buy a boat with his sign-on bonus, which sucks because I'd like to buy furniture or clothes or other pointless stuff since I am a female and we all love to shop, but he has worked his butt off (I'm just now realizing how hard, actually) and so he deserves a big ol boat if that's what he wants. I'm just so happy for him.

I'm so happy Tech won on Saturday! The one thing I miss more than anything about Tech is the football season. We have tried to get Sugar Bowl tickets in every way we know how and we've had no luck. Tyson and Evan waited up the other night and kept trying on Ticketmaster, they tried for 2 or 3 hours with no luck and now everything is sold out. We're counting on Jeremy to get us some, but who knows. It would be so much fun to go. Tyson went to New Orleans the last time they made it to the Sugar Bowl for the national championship and he said it was lots of fun. So we're gonna try it, but who knows, I doubt we'll ever get a ticket. I'm so proud of the HOkies though...ACC champs...whooooo!!!! You better enjoy that game, Kelly...I am so jealous! Oh and have 2 hurricanes on Burboun Street for me! =)

I have got zero done for christmas so far. It's really stressing me out because I'm usually very planned about the holidays but not this year. I'll probably be running around like a maniac trying to get everything done. Tyson and I sponsored a guy and a girl at church to provide their christmas for them and I have had the most fun buying for them than anything. That's what christmas is really about...not buying more junk for everyone else who already has everything they could ever want. I love doing stuff like that, it makes me feel so good inside to know that the kids will be able to have a christmas now. And you know the weirdest thing? We really couldn't afford to buy everything that was on the list for them, and when I went out shopping for the girl, I found everything on clearance and I got her almost everything on the list for hardly any money at all. It was so unbelievable. My mom says thats the way it always works when you do nice things, but it was amazing to me. We're gonna do it every year.

Shew I've rambled enough. I hope everyone enjoys this time of year, it's the best!
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[16 Nov 2004|06:36pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Sometimes this mood hits me and sometimes it passes, but right now I can honestly say I hate school. I feel like I'm learning alot, which is good, but as far as Campbell University goes, I hate it. I wish (almost daily) that I would've chosen UNC. WHAT WAS I THINKING???? I keep hoping that I was put at this place for a reason, and I wish that reason would hurry up and show itself because I'm having a hard time here. I think Tyson and I have just had bad luck. Our loans took the longest in the history of the financial aid department, and my computer crashed after a month. The stupid computer guy took 2 weeks to fix it and that was really a pain because my micro books are on my computer (they made us buy this new software instead of having hard-cover books and IT SUCKS) so I had a week of exams and everything with no book, no access to notes, nothing...it was a major pain. When the guy finally gets my computer ready I go to pick it up and he was extremely rude to me. I don't think I've ever been treated so badly in my life, and then when I get home he has a slip inside my computer saying I owe him $30 for each hour he worked on the thing because I downloaded some program that I shouldn't have. I had never heard of the program in my life, and I am NOT computer literate so all I know how to do is check my email, download and print notes, and write on this thing. I don't have the mental capability to mess a computer up that badly. It just majorly pissed me off. Maybe I'm wrong but I pay 20,000 to go to this place, I feel like the least I should get is a little bit of respect and some computer help. The dean of admissions is also a jackass who likes to come into our class at least once a week and preach to us about the freakin dress code...give me a break I'm 23 years old, I know how to dress and I understood you the first 30 times you came and gave us your speech. This guy loves to hear himself talk if you know what I mean and I get sick to my stomach when I see him walking in. I'm just really frustrated with school...I'm ready for a break. I have a final on Tuesday, 2 finals on Wednesday, and then I'll be going home late Wednesday for thanksgiving and coming back early Friday so I can start studying for finals because we have a final every single day at 8 am of the next week....talk about a week from hell. I might change my mind tomorrow, but as of today I'm up to my eyeballs in frustration with Campbell.

Could this song be any more true of my life? I think not.

Bless the Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I’m just rollin’ home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

Beautiful song! Well it's dinner time, and I made us turkey spaghetti...yum!

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[19 Oct 2004|08:59pm]
I finally got to go home this past weekend. Thursday was my birthday and we were off for fall break so I headed home. I had a doctor's appointment and a bunch of stuff to get done and Tyson had to work until late friday so I had to go home without him, which was not good. He did come on home late friday though and it's a good thing because I missed him like crazy. It's weird how you can get so used to being with someone. Everyone kept asking if I enjoyed being away from him for a few days and of course I didn't...I missed him like crazy in only 2 days time...I guess I'm pathetic...haha. Anyway the drive home thursday was a disaster. A 4 hour drive turned into a 6 hour drive because I got stuck in a traffic jam. The Durham area has so much trouble with traffic, I found that out for sure. I was so worn out by the time I got home. It was evidently a sign for the whole weekend because I had to wait 3 freakin hours at the doctors office friday morning also, and just to tell my doctor how the neurology appointment went. I was in the office with her 5 minutes after waiting 3 hours...I was not a happy camper. When you only get to come home 2 or 3 times a semester (which I'm not used to) the last place you want to be is in a doctor's office lobby for 3 hours. And driving back sunday Tyson and I got caught in another traffic jam from hell in guess where...Durham! We left at 4pm and got home at 10:45pm. I was so exhausted and had a bunch of things to do for class Monday so it sucked. But the GOOD things about the weekend definately outweigh the bad. I got to see Tara and it was so good to see her. Charlee has to be the cutest little girl I've ever seen. She's precious. I also voted, finally got the mix-up with the social security office fixed (changing your last name is easier said than done), and got to spend lots of time with all the family which was great. I had a great birthday too. You know you're an old geezer when you ask for floor mats for your car as a birthday gift..haha. I love them though. I remember I used to get clothes and shoes and boy how things do change. I'm asking for a dresser for christmas because Ty and I desperately need a place to store clothes and socks and things. Yes I am an old geezer for sure.

My new laptop provided by Campbell U. for the bargain price of $20,000 in tuition is on the fritz already. I get so mad at that thing...IBM is a piece of crap. All my notes and everything I need is on that computer and I can't even get it to start up. Of course the one single man who is over computers for the whole entire campus is never anywhere to be found so who knows when it'll ever get fixed. Sometimes I just don't know about Campbell.

Tyson did his big P4 presentation a couple weeks ago. I got to sit in and watch the whole group go. I dread doing mine already...sometimes the professors really drill you. Tyson got one of the hardest panels of professors, 2 of which are internal medicine pharmacists at duke, and so he was dreading it so bad. He did very well though, I was really proud of him. He's also just about done with his 2 months of internal med so it's gonna be smooth sailing for him for the rest of the year pretty much...I'm happy for him. He's worked so hard and he deserves to have some free time now.

Tomorrow is my "shadow day". We have to go around with a P4 student for a day to see what a rotation is like. Lucky me gets to go all the way to greenville which is about 2 hours away and I have to be there at 7am for rounds. Tyson wanted me to get a motel room but I don't like doing stuff like that by myself so I'm just gonna get up some ungodly hour and try to drive there in time. I hope the Durham traffic will be under control at 4am, but you never know. One good thing is that the girl I'm shadowing is doing her rotation in the neonatal intensive care at pitt memorial and that's one of the rotations I want for sure so I'm really glad I get to experience it. I'm hoping to specialize in something to do with pediatrics so I got lucky in getting paired with Kelly, even if I do have to drive so far. This reminds me that I should already be in bed, so I'm gonna get headed in that direction.

HAPPY [early] 22nd BIRTHDAY JILLY!!!!!!!!!!

I love you and I hope it's the best one yet! Oh, and I wish we could all be there to black your face just like old times...haha! =)
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BURN OUT [04 Oct 2004|10:28pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Wow I'm tired...and have I mentioned lately that I'm burned out with school? I'm not sure whether I've just been in college too long, or if I completely underestimated pharmacy school, but I'm getting my butt kicked. We stayed in all weekend. I studied on and off all weekend except for a few hours saturday watching the tech game, and a few hours yesterday that we spent at church. I felt ok about my medical microbiological knowledge and then went in today and got my butt kicked. It was like I completely went blank when I got the exam. I still have 3 more exams this week and I just have 0 motivation.

The weather here is killing me. It was in the low 80's today and it felt miserable. All the trees are still greener than green and all I want is to see some fall foilage and wear some sweaters. I always thought fall was my least favorite season until now and I really miss it. Once again I was spoiled at tech because it was so beautiful during this time of year. I look forward to going home next weekend (it's our fall break, thank gosh!) and seeing an actual change in season. Plus I miss my family. I haven't seen my mamaw and papaw in like 6 weeks which is really rare for me and I miss them like crazy.

I am proud of myself on one front. For once I've gotten off my big butt and gotten really into this election. It started in one of my classes when we were talking about Medicare and Medicaid and where the presidential candidates stood on the issues, and I realized I didn't know much at all about these programs and they really affect my future profession. I've been on a mission lately to learn all I can about Medicare, Medicaid, tax cuts, the war, the national debt, prescription drug importation, and all the major issues that I feel strongly about. These are the things that affect me personally. And I honestly looked at where I stand in the plans of each of the candidates, as well as where our country stands. I feel really good about making an informed and educated decision. I can argue until I'm blue in the face about what I think is important, but that doesn't mean a thing. I just hope everyone out there who plans to vote has done some sort of research. And not just on one issue, because if you make a decision based on only one issue then that's probably not the smartest thing to do. And if the facts you searched are biased from the beginning then that's probably not the smartest thing to do either. Just be grown up about things, be smart, and inform yourself. The worst thing you can do is be uninformed about what is really going on in the world. I believe 100% that all the candidates are far from perfect. I would even go so far as to say that politics are pretty much evil. But I think that it is very important to choose the lesser of the evils, because our country and our futures depend on it. So that's my little rant.

I will basically do anything to keep from studying...like write a pointless entry into this thing. So let's get back to learning some drug information...what joy!

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looking up [02 Sep 2004|06:06pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

this week has been better. i'm happy to report that my neurology appointment went very well. they found no tumors or anything and basically just concluded that i suffer from migraines and with my hectic stressful summer i just had more than usual. the neurologist was so nice, turns out he graduated from pharmacy school before he went to med school and his daughter is a campbell pharmacy graduate...small world. his other daughter is also applying here so that was neat. he gave me all kinds of migraine drugs to try so i'm hoping i will find one that will zap those babies.

i've concluded that i miss tech terribly. i get so frustrated here because things are so laid-back and things take soo long. at tech my financial aid was ready a week before school...here, they haven't even completed my file yet. they don't seem to understand that i have no money for books, rent, or food in the meantime but it doesnt speed them up any when i explain it to them. there is also nothing here except lots of roads, lots of traffic, and lots of malls and shopping centers. which is nice, but i was spoiled at tech to be able to walk out my patio door and take a 2 mile walk on a beautiful trail right beside my apartment building, or play volleyball, or shoot basketball, or hang out by the pond. here there is nothing but people everywhere and no mountains. i was trying to figure out why i am so frustrated being here because there are some things that i like alot, but i realized finally that i just miss tech. nothing will ever compare to blacksburg and that will always be where my loyalty lies. we actually did decent in the game last weekend. tyson is trying to figure out a game that we can make it to this season... campbell also doesn't have a football team and i'm definately not used to a football season without football. kelly and alisha, i wish i was back there with you guys. =(

there is always a light at the end of the tunnel because yesterday was convocation day at campbell for P4 students. they were just recognized with a big ceremony and then we all got to eat lunch. basically all the speakers said "congrats to you P4's and we feel sorry for you P1's". boy i've got a long road ahead. but anyway i digress...the point is there were a ton of representatives there to talk to the P4's and tyson has always wanted to work for walgreens so he talked with a rep. their offer was pretty impressive so maybe we can have hope that we won't always be this poor because it's really getting to me not even having money to buy the food i want. tyson's so excited to start making money. he just started his internal medicine rotation at duke and it's supposed to be the hardest. i feel for him, buti have faith that he'll do great.

going to make dinner now... chicken again. yum yum!

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say no to grease [19 Aug 2004|07:03pm]
[ mood | worried ]

this is kind of interesting. tyson's rotation this month is in the cardiac intensive care at duke medical center so he's been getting to watch all kinds of cool heart surgeries and stuff. he comes home and tells me all about them, and shew it makes me so sick to hear all the gross details. he has a slight heart condition, and it has been freaking him out. he's all obsessed with eating healthy now and he runs every day and i'm starting to freak out myself. he says the plaque and cholesterol buildup in these peoples arteries are disguisting and it makes me never want to eat a potatoe chip or fried foods ever again. not only do i get to hear about all the creative places in the body they get arteries out of to use in the heart, but i also get to hear about the saws, drills and other various household appliances they use to cut open the sternum and chest cavity. it makes me so nauseous, and i don't know how long it will last but i'm determined to get my heart in shape so i will hopefully never have to have any of those surgeries.

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first week of school blues [18 Aug 2004|08:02pm]
[ mood | tired ]

so pharmacy school started on monday. something about being in classes with only super over-achievers makes me nauseous. i guess i knew everyone would be pretty smart, but gosh they all make me so nervous because they're already studying and getting all their books and their day planners filled up and i usually don't even buy any books for my classes. i'm used to relying on the slackers to help me out and surprise surprise there are no slackers except for me i'm beginning to find out. it makes me really nervous. i'm not sure what i think about school yet, but we got our new laptops the other day, so its nice to have a computer thats new and doesn't require being restarted after every action. alisha would be so proud! =)

i don't like getting up so early and i despise dressing up. campbell has a "professional" dress code which means no open-toed shoes, no denim, no t-shirts or sweats, and no tank tops. considering all i ever wore to class was jeans or pajama pants and a sweatshirt, i've been struggling to find clothes to wear each day. tyson and i haven't gotten any loans approved yet either, so we are broke and i can't even buy any books or anything, not that i would really. i guess i just don't like being the new kid again. i finally had things figured out at tech and boy do i miss it. i feel lost all over again and it's not the best feeling. everyone is really nice and helpful though. and i've met alot of people so far, so a new start is kind of exciting too.

friday is tyson's birthday and we have no money so i don't know what i'm gonna do. he wants to go to a durham bulls game because his friend gets free tickets, so i guess we'll do that and i'm gonna attempt to bake him a nice cake. i hope he goes with the philosophy that it's the thought that counts. honestly i love being married...there is nothing better. even though our place is still a wreck and we have no money and no time to do any better, we just sit back and laugh. except for the fact that i'm forced to watch the poker world championship while watching him play party poker, i would say that things are perfect.

i like apex alot, but i miss home more than i thought i would. there is every store, and every restaurant that you can name within 10 minutes of our apartment so i love that, but there's also lots of traffic and stuff so it can suck. my mom and mamaw came down last sunday for my white-coat ceremony and it was great to see them. i think i miss my family more than anything.

tyson wants me to cut his hair now, so i guess i'll go attempt that. lord help him! i will be so happy friday at noon when my first week of pharmacy school is OVER. is it bad that i'm ready to drop out already?

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pictures [11 Aug 2004|11:36pm]
i uploaded some pictures onto my filebox, so i hope they work.

Rehearsal Pictures

Ocho Rios Jamaica
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at long last i finally have internet access again. i've been so lost all summer without the internet at my house, i thought i'd die. but wow here i am and lots has changed for me. i'm now moved and settled in here in apex. my wonderful husband is sound asleep in bed. he goes to bed at around 9 now because he has to get up at 4:30 for his critical care rotation at duke this month. i feel so sorry for him because he stays so tired and is being worked to death, but its really good experience for him i guess, but it sure leaves me lots of time to be bored to death by myself. sadly i go to bed really early now too and get up at dawn which i never thought i'd do. this is my last week off before classes start for me, so i should be enjoying it.

the summer has FLOWN by. the wedding was a success i think for the most part considering i was the worst planner and organizer of all time. we were so terrible at getting things together, getting people together and getting things done that it is truly embarrassing. we decided that we shouldnt have tried to work so much this summer and maybe we could've planned and done things right, but then again nobody would've had the money to pay for anything if we hadn't worked our tales off so go figure. all i know looking back at the wedding is that tyson and i are so truly blessed. there are so many people who came together and gave their time and money and encouragement to us who we could never repay. there is no way we were deserving of everything that everyone did for us, and there is no way we could ever repay everyone for the things they did but we are so thankful. we know that we have the greatest families and groups of friends who took time out of their busy lives to be with us in our wedding and do things for us all through the summer and we really could not have made it without them. not only did i get to marry my prince charming but i feel like i got to have a wonderful wedding and see and spend time with wonderful people and i know i am truly blessed. i'm trying to do better at sending out thank-you cards than i was at organizing everything else so we'll see how that goes. i really am just so thankful for everything tho. i look around our apartment and there is no way we would have made it without the generosity of everybody. every gift that people gave us and all the nice things that people did for us are just such blessings and it really amazes me still. i hope that i can be as much of a blessing to people as they have been to us throughout this summer. i am just so thankful for everybody and everything that has been a part of this summer.

so far "married life" is great, but i sorda expected that it would be. it's nice to be with tyson all the time and not ever have to leave him when its time to go back to school. it feels really good to finally have that stability. i was definately ready for it and i know i am blessed to have such a great guy like him. sometimes i'm not sure how i got so lucky, but i sure am glad i did and i thank my lucky stars that i have him. jamaica was very nice. great weather and the place was so nice. i've never seen anything like it in my life. i had never been on a plane before so that part was scary. i'm not sure i like to fly or that i'll ever be comfortable with it, but it was a wonderful trip. i think there is way too much of the united states that i havent seen to go out of the country again though. next time i want to travel somewhere in the states but its going to be quite awhile before we have any money to travel again. i'm just thankful to have been able to go.

and now i guess it's back to real life...the fairy tale summer is almost over. the only downside to this summer is that the migraine headaches are flaring up again. they've gotten progressively worse all summer and i've gotten one almost every day for the last couple weeks, so of course i have to go through the whole neurology scans again in 2 weeks. i really dread it, i just want to feel normal in my head again...i can't remember the last day that i actually felt good so please keep me in your prayers. i pray that there are no tumors and nothing really wrong with me except stress, which is over for good now (i hope).

i'm so happy to be back on a computer again. it's gonna take me a few days but i plan to catch up on the lives of all of you. thank you to jill and alisha and miranda and anybody else who might read this and was a part of the wedding. i know you didnt have to be there or be a part of it, but it really meant so much to me that you were and i am so thankful for friends like you. i hope to talk with you all soon because i've missed each and every one of you.

now at only 12, its way past my bedtime, so i will say goodnight.
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dentists suck [10 Jun 2004|10:52am]
[ mood | hungry ]

The last week has been interesting but i'm glad i won't ever have to relive it. i finally decided, because i'll be going off my parents insurance after the wedding and i realized how much these things cost, to have my wisdom teeth taken out. the dentist has been trying to get me to forever, but i just keep putting it off. well the time had come so i gave in. it was a horrible experience. i guess it wasn't as bad as it could've been since i didnt have any dry sockets or anything like that, but shew i just hate the dentist. i was conscious but i don't really remember much, just bits and pieces. i remember watching him drilling and sewing up the stitches and stuff but it was kinda like i was in a dream. the worst part was after i got home and all i could eat was milkshakes, so i ate peanut butter of course, and lots of them. well that was a mistake because i got so sick and started puking which didn't help with the stitches and bleeding and added to the fact that i couldn't really even open my mouth, it was not a pretty situation. thank goodness for my mom and tyson who were home with me that day and took great care of me! =) i've been swelled like the biggest chipmunk for the last week but only on one side which sucked because i just looked like a freak. haha...i'm just glad its over.

now it's been back to work and trying to catch up on all i missed. we're so behind on wedding stuff. and sadly we don't even care. i still have to decide on bouquets and the cake and the music and the ceremony and blah i just get frustrated thinking about it.

work at CVS is.... interesting. they make the interns work at least 10 hour days "to prepare us for being a pharmacist" and let me tell you i have much more respect for my parents now because they work 12 hour shifts all the time. that is such a long shift. we can't sit down at the pharmacy and we're so busy and my feet and back get sooo tired. i know i'm such a whiner but it's actually so much harder than i thought. the computer system is a biyatch from hell. i hate it and i'm the slowest person on earth. i feel like they would get the scripts out faster if i wasn't even working because i'm so slow and have to ask so many questions but hopefully i will catch on at some point. its definately interesting though... you run up on some very interesting stuff and overall i really am enjoying it. they placed me at the same store with tyson which really shocked me but i'm not complaining. he amazes me sometimes with how much he knows. he counsels patients and everything, which i guess makes sense since he'll be the actual pharmacist in only about 7 months, but it still fascinates me.

ok well speaking of work i have to head there now. tyson had to go in at 9am so i'm bringing us lunch... i think i'll stop and get some japanese. yes that sounds delicious!

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Summa Time [26 May 2004|08:54pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

so summer has begun with a fury.

i dont think i've written since my graduation weekend. it was such a great weekend. of course my mom hadn't tried to book a room in enough time, so my whole entire family ended up staying at our apartment. good thing we had 2 couches and air mattresses!! it was such a blast though. we wanted to take my sister downtown since she had never been and my mamaw & parents decided they wanted to come too. i have never laughed so much in my entire life as i did when my mamaw hit the dance floor after having a margarita. i was sore the next day from laughing so much.

graduation was the best. the honors students got to walk through the football tunnel and meet the other graduates. it was a great honor walking through campus behind the drummers and having everyone watch us in our colored honor sashes. i was finally able to feel proud of myself for all my accomplishments and walking through campus that last time was amazing...such an awesome feeling! the chemistry graduation was really neat too. it was laid back and relaxed and we all got to say whatever we wanted to our families and friends which was nice. and the breakfast afterwards was the best breakfast i've ever had. we definately had our share of banquets and dinners to attend over the weekend but i was so proud to have all my family there sharing in everything with me. i've never been prouder to be a hokie.

since graduation i've been running around pretty much nonstop. i've been helping tyson's dad at the restaurant and also getting set up at CVS. i'll be working there between 30-40 hours a week. they put me in the bristol store with tyson which should be interesting...i was surprised but glad. this is his last week at his first rotation and then he'll be home for the rest of the summer. i'm so excited for him to be home for good...being here just isn't the same without him.

wedding stuff is stressing me out majorly... there just isn't enough time to do everything i want to do! i get so frustrated...but it'll be worth it i'm sure.

i've been cleaning out all my stuff and getting ready to leave here for good in 2 months. i am so excited but i also get sad at times. yesterday i was cleaning out an old box of letters and pictures and stuff i had kept from my years in the dorms. i sat in the floor and cried as i read and remembered all the things people wrote to me in letters, about how homesick i was those first few weeks, and as i remembered the silly little notes people would write for me in the dorms and stuff. i'm glad i have those memories tucked inside with me forever. sometimes i can't even believe how much things have changed in my life since that time, how much I have changed. some of the things i was so sure of are now just a distant memory. the letters from my mamaw were the saddest... i swear i love that woman so much, she is such an amazing person.

its gonna be a busy weekend but we hope we'll make it to the lake at some point... lowell brought his boat down from lake norman so we actually have a boat to use now. tyson is so excited. i'm gonna go rest since i have to work a double tomorrow.

until next the next time i decide to fire up my parents 200 year old computer, ya'll be good! =)

Real love means more than flowers,
means more than beautiful words.
Real love is keeping promises...
holding on when you don't want to,
being strong so that others may rest.
And as time and change swirl around us,
the love we share stands quietly
in the midst of our lives, forever beautiful, forever real.

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SO...HERE WE ARE! [11 May 2004|08:53pm]
it's officially over. i had 2 finals yesterday, which was kinda overwhelming for me, but i got through it. without the grades i'd like to have had i'm sure, but it's over. as of yesterday at 6:25 pm i'm officially done with my undergraduate career. it's been great...but just like everything else, it eventually had to end. i'm relieved but also sad to leave. it's a good feeling though.

we visited JMU this past weekend for kinsey's graduation. i liked the campus, but overall i've come to realize with the more places i visit and the more colleges i see, that i think virginia tech is the greatest college campus on earth. ok ok i'm probably a little partial to the place, but seriously... the huge diversity of people here, the campus, the atmosphere, downtown, and still yet the small town feel of the place is just unmatched. even kinsey agreed with me on that one... i really really love it here and blacksburg is truly going to be missed... even the freakish and unpredictable weather here kinda holds a special place in my heart.

so graduation is friday night (university wide) and saturday morning for my small chemistry ceremony. i don't think i'm even going to the biochemistry ceremony in the afternoon but i'm not completely decided on that one yet.

i decided to clog up your friends lists with the lyrics to this song i love. sorry but i just love it.

I can be a nightmare of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I have the bravest heart that you’ve ever seen
And you’ve never met anyone who's as positive as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you’ve ever known
And you’ve never met anyone who's as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

And you’re still here
And you're still here...

and HERE'S a picture of my little stud puppy with "the men" at the infamous bugg's island fishing trip.

it's finally summer! =)now what am i gonna do with myself?
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true companion [04 May 2004|11:12pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Well I did rather well on the pchem exam friday. It came as a total shock because there were only 8 problems (which is typical since they take about 2 pages to work out) but one problem was worth 21 points and i worked on it about an hour and was SO frustrated and then i just decided to give it one last try and turn in my test. it turned out i did it correctly so that's what saved me. now i could have an A if i would take the final and beat the average by 3 points. but let's face it, i dont even care. it's definately not worth my time to study 10 chapters of quantum mechanics, the shrodinger equation, and other useless physical chemistry crap and take a 3.5 hour test for an A. if that's not proof i'm a senior nothing is because any other semester i would've done it for the A. plus, kinz's graduation at JMU is saturday (during my pchem final exam time)so tyson and i are heading up there friday to stay the weekend. that beats a pchem final any day =)

this past weekend i went home to celebrate mothers day early with my mom since i wont be able to go home this weekend. she wanted a fushia hanging basket so that's what she got. it was a good weekend at home. mine and tysons parents got together and bought us an appointment for engagement pictures... we are so happy cause we couldn't afford one. the photographer is meeting with us sometime after i graduate and we're taking our pictures at the creeper trail where tyson proposed to me... it'll be sweet i hope. that was the best gift ever!

i honestly cannot believe i will be graduating. i mean i know i am, i have my cap and gown, and in a way i feel like i've been here forever working toward this goal. but at the same time it's here and i'm looking back wondering where the time has gone. i'm honestly so sad... i love this place. UNC was nice, but it doesn't compare to this campus and this town. Campbell is where i'll be the next 4 years, but it's not blacksburg and it'll never come close. today was my last ever geography class... everybody gave him a round of applause at the end of class. that was the best class i think i've ever had here. it has been hard and i know the final will kick my ass, but i went from not even knowing the location of the 50 states in the U.S. to understanding why China and Japan hate each other and why Mu'ammar al-Qadhafi will likely be assassinated in the near future. i walked out of that class today and realized i only have 1 more class tomorrow standing between me and graduation. in the pit of my stomach i wanted to go back and experience the last 4 years all over again. trust me there are lots of things i'd change *cough* like 2 wasted years *cough*...but i'd never change my decision about coming here. that was the best decision i've ever made for myself. i'm so excited for the future, but i will always feel fortunate and proud to call myself a hokie.

i almost forgot, tyson started his first rotation yesterday. this one's in geriatrics. i think he really likes it... he's doing good. gosh i'll be so nervous to be at duke, if i can even get on there. thats another good thing about campbell is that most of their faculty are from duke and that's the hospital they do rotations with 4th year. ahh i get nervous just thinking about it.

this weekend while i was home, my dad told me to play this song at the wedding...and that it was his song to my mom. i kinda laughed cause the songs he likes are usually AC/DC or Pearl Jam type rocker songs, but when i got back i downloaded it and i love it. it's so sweet... it almost made me cry.

ok i've been sentimental enough for one night. but beware, i still have a week and a half until graduation so i'm sure there's plenty more to come.

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